Sunday, August 31, 2008

Part II Running and Smoking Update

I quit running, took up smoking. quit running sometime in june, took up smoking in july. as of sep 2 i am quitting. instead of running i am going to the gym 3 days a week to begin with.
oy vey. not proud of these returning habits. and i hope to change them and begin new, healthy habits. i feel like shit physically, and that just fucks with my mind. makes me depressed. moody. irritable. excercising and taking care of myself make me feel good. when will i get this through my head and live accordiningly?
update on jeff:
he is doing really well, with a few bad days here and there. but the threat of another surgery seems to have been averted (knock on wood!).
so, in summary, no more marathon (discovered i didn't particularly like running, and don't believe it's good for the body long-term), lots of cigarettes, quitting september 2, taking up the gym again.
wish me luck, someone.

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Friday, September 12, 2008 1:11:28 PM (Pacific Daylight Time, UTC-07:00)

HEY!!!
I'm a "someone!" :)

Good luck darlinka darling doll faced dear friend of mine! Many good lucks!!! YOU SO CAN DO THIS! You're bigger than it is...

It seems like I'm running a similar marathon over here trying to break my own habits, failing, trying again... *sigh* I keep thinking now that it's the end of the year that this past year is nothing BUT working on breaking habits, putting better ones in place to be ready to start again for next year. Even though I had so hoped that THIS was the year ALL would be aligned. Not so much.

It's frustrating.

But we need to give ourselves those little pats and encouragements that we HAVE INDEED done it for these short spouts of time and let's try again to go a little further, right? Isn't THAT what you would tell me? You'll get it. I know you will. But let's both try and focus on those good moments and sit there when we WERE doing it and FEEL just how GOOD it is!!! Ahhhhh.

I love and miss you so!

xo

me

me-nikk

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